Saturday, February 4, 2012

I know i started this blog as a the experiences of a law student and in all fairness my first blog should start with something to do with my student career in law school but today i don't much feel in the mood to discuss law or anything much related to that. Today my discussion is on an entirely different level. In my defense this post is not completely unconnected with law school...i mean it is about college life or rather a very common experience in college life...that of falling in love...i know, i know now days people don't wait till college for that experience...but i am one of those few select people who kept very much away from the opposite gender in all my school life having the puritan way of life instilled in me from my conscious moments.
It was therefore in law school that I first experienced this strange feeling. You know how all those times your friends try to explain what it is like to get drunk and why they love the feeling and how you could never get why they would like something like that...for me falling in love with someone was something like that...something which I had looked down upon...when my friends used to come up to me in school talking about love...I would be shocked as to how they could willing subject themselves to the humiliation of completely losing their head over someone...so it took me till college to understand why.
Even when I first joined college I had come with a fixed mind set...I had decided that I would keep to my goal and keep away from anything distracting...experiences I had heard of from my friends had assured me that any close interaction with the opposite gender was only a major source of distraction and I had firmly told myself that I really didn't have time for such things...but let me tell you folks...falling is love is like catching a cold...you can see it coming but you can never know when it will hit you in full force...
For me the onslaught took place in my second year of college...and it was brutal. But I can assure you this much that everything they say about falling in love is true complete with the rose tinted glasses and everything.
Falling in love is like entering a Utopian world where everything is right and absolutely nothing can go wrong...analysing this from a third person perspective I have managed to pull this feeling apart and look at it from the inside...and this is what I want to share with you...
I don't know how many of you have read about the Hobbsian theory of man...but for those of you who haven't, Hobbes was a social scientist/theorist/thinker who believed that man was of a selfish nature and whatever he did he did for himself. But I can assure you this much...he wasn't completely right...falling in love is one of the most beautiful things in life. Other than the fact that you feel like everything is rosy...there is nothing more wonderful than loving someone more than you love yourself...But after this its pretty much downhill...cause you see Hobbes spoke from experience and whenever a person speaks from experience he can't be completely wrong. No matter how much you love someone...man will always love himself above all else and falling in love is only a situation where this natural phenomena is pushed to the recesses of one's mind. So when you give away your 'heart' and don't get one back in return you can only imagine what happens. Its only for sometime that a person can live without a heart...metaphorically speaking...soon therefore your brain tries to cope with this phenomena like its supposed to do...it creates an army to fight off this feeling...to do all it can to ensure that you feel better. But this so called army inadvertently does more damage than you can imagine. In trying to protect the person..the brain leaves him bitter and angry...and all but changes him as a person...his brain tells him not to get close to anyone so as to avoid repeating such a situation and the person becomes a loner, afraid of commitment and afraid to get emotionally involved with anyone...looking for ways to fill the space..
So that's the deal folks...fall in love if you want...but remember everything comes with a price.
But I wont end in such a somber note...so let me tell you one thing...the experience is worth it...